My mom’s go to knife is a big butcher knife. I call it a machete because it’s the biggest knife we have. It’s not a part of a set but stands alone. This machete will be used for anything from cutting tomatoes, vegetables, potatoes, buttering bread, stirring things in a pot and pan, and even slicing cake. It’s a “jack of a trades” kind of knife in our house. What’s amazing is that it’s always sharp. I always joke with her and tell her to put the machete down and grab another knife please! Seeing her use that one makes me nervous because she can be a little shaky at times. I’ve now even found myself using it too because the other knives we have are literally not the sharpest ones on the block. A memory of my grandmother De Los Santos came to mind recently. I remember her always being in the kitchen cooking for anyone who came by the house and she also would always have a big butcher knife in her hand for everything. She would be telling stories and laughing in the kitchen while waving the knife around in her hand. We would be ducking our heads to make sure we didn’t get caught in the crossfire! I’ve asked mom why do you use this knife? What’s your beef with the other knives? She just says she likes this one and is comfortable using it.
She feels comfortable using the biggest knife for the smallest task. In life, we go through struggles, disappointments, doubts, or whatever trial we face and we feel like we need to pick up our own machete and attack. I’m looking at one of the mountains in front of me and I’m starting my plan of attack. It’s looking pretty massive and intimidating. I can honestly say, I’ve never faced this mountain before. If anything, I’ve been avoiding it for years. Something tells me it’s time to face it. I’m starting to reach out to my Adrenal Insufficiency support groups and looking to those who have faced this mountain or are currently facing it now and wanting to know how they handled it. I’m wanting to know what worked or didn’t work for them. Give me insight people! Tell me the the juicy details! Throw me a bone! Well, as I hear more of their experiences, it provides both positive and negative feedback. I hear the advice of make sure you do this, make sure you don’t do that, don’t forget to do this, and you’re gonna face this obstacle, you’re gonna be denied the first time, second time, third time, it’s gonna take years to get accepted, blah, blah, blah. After hearing all this, I find myself looking at my own machete and thinking…I need a bigger one! Go big or go home!
So back to the drawing board and Amazon looking for a bigger machete. The biggest badass machete I can find (that’s Amazon Prime 2 day free shipping) because I need it fast! I wonder if comes in a set? So much energy goes into the planning of attack that by the time you go to battle, you’re gonna be wiped out and not going to have the strength to continue. Then no matter how big your machete is, you’re not gonna be able to fight. Sometimes clarity can come in when we’re at our most vulnerable. If you’re listening, there’s a voice that will speak to you. Everyone has a voice that speaks to them. That voice of reason or your conscience. The voice that speaks to me is God. He’s telling me to stop planning my attack. He’s telling me to give up and let go. Stop listening to the outside noise of other’s opinions and advice. I need to trust Him. Put the machete down.
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