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From the moment I saw you with your piercing blue eyes. Here’s a gift to you, all of me with all of you. Much more than just one night but a decade plus in the books. Many twists and turns so much I got whiplash and tore up inside and out trying to keep up.

Many times, lashing out warnings to each other do this or that or else. Don’t you ever.  You’re lucky I am not crazy like everyone else, but apparently, not crazy enough, not mad enough, or anything enough. Let’s live in a pretend land like nothing ever happened. You will be back to normal in no time, and we can go back to the way things were. News flash FYI, it will never be the same, and neither will I.

Go ahead, let’s just put on the blinders and block out reality and fill our lives with denial and beat our souls to the ground with resentment and our emotions six feet under or even further.

I’m too much to handle, aren’t I? I’m broken, beaten, dying before your eyes, but you won’t throw me a life vest, just a band-aid and a disappointed look.

I knew before you did but couldn’t bring myself to speak because my voice was lost, and I was weak. Oh, now I see the blood streaming from your mouth. Your tongue must be gone.

It’s a miracle the words finally came out. It was the out we both desperately needed to survive. You finally threw me the lifeline I so desperately needed.

You had the best of me and all of me. You were my best friend, my best lover, my all-consuming drug, my everything, and you became the emotional tormentor of my spirit, heart, and soul.

It was a season for us that will forever be a part of me, but that season needed to end so our lives could begin again.

News flash FYI, I came back louder and stronger, along with my voice.

Thank You.