My previous post, “Too Many Tabs Open,” was my inspiration for this one. I had posted that in June 2024, and it’s funny because I was searching for an image to use for this post, and I saw the one about the brain having too many tabs, and then realized I had already used it. Then I found this one and felt it was a perfect segue to what I wanted to share in this one.
I have always been good at multitasking and proud of this skill because it came in handy with the positions that I have held throughout my work experience. It placed me in positions where I stood out and was often the go-to person when someone was needed to put out any fires. I loved it because it made me feel needed and like I was important, because inside I didn’t always feel that way. Fast forward to now, I can still multitask with the best of them, but I need to write everything down in a separate to-do list journal, post-it notes, and put reminders on my phone to keep track of what things I’m trying to multitask so I don’t forget!
I think this photo says it all for me lately. There are too many tabs open in my mind, and at times I feel scatterbrained. I hate that feeling. There is no one to blame aside from myself because I overthink things. Instead of releasing it and giving it to God, I will hold onto it and let it steep just a little more. Well, other thoughts enter, and you can guess what happens; they just keep piling up. In my previous post, I mentioned the surgery I had, and it was hernia repair surgery, five to be exact. Still after 18 months, I’m feeling the side effects of the surgery with the numbness, tenderness, and shooting pains in the whole incision area. So, of course, my mind thinks the hernias are moving or they are back, or something’s off, etc. I had a follow-up with the surgeon, and he assured me that it’s normal and the nerves are reawakening, and it can take this long, if not longer, depending on how extensive the surgery was. Within the last couple of months, I have begun to feel better, and the “awakening” pains have been a little more spread out, and I am starting to feel like myself again. So now I can kick that thought out of my brain.
Next, another medical issue had made itself present was evidence of high liver enzymes that were reflected in my recent blood work. My Primary Doctor did not seem overly concerned, and I wasn’t too concerned either because I have had slightly elevated levels before, and for whatever reason, they went back down to normal again. The doctor wanted to cover all the bases and ordered another round of blood work to check for various things associated with the liver, in addition to some other tests. Again, I began thinking about it and wondering what if there is something, and thinking about all the reasons why this is not a good time because I am starting to venture out in another aspect of my current job, and on and on. I finally received the results, and everything came out negative, and the liver enzymes went back down to normal. All the additional tests were normal, too. Here’s to another thought to kick out.
So, what’s left in the space is a separate area designated for work-related tasks to complete and brainstorming of ideas for marketing, also learning how to incorporate these ideas into my personal ventures, and how I can improve myself in every aspect of my life, physically, mentally, and spiritually. At the forefront of my mind is a bookmark for keeping track of my daily management of my adrenal insufficiency disease, so I don’t have any issues or emergencies that could arise. The spiritual portion of the space is constantly going through growing pains, evolving and changing, like the title of the old soap opera from back in the day, As The World Turns. I need God to navigate through all the twists and turns of my life and this world.
There are still some miscellaneous thoughts lingering in the background, but those are working themselves out on their own, much to my surprise, and I’m excited about that. I have been working on decluttering my home and discarding and donating items that I no longer use and that are just taking up space. I am working on applying the same idea of decluttering to my mind and life. It can be overwhelming, humbling, and emotionally draining, but I need to trust the process. I continue to close one tab at a time.
The World of Dlo 